sucking it in spewing it out
come waves and words and love and chords
singing and believing can complete me
but that Past ghost he keeps on lying
he lies all day but I never know
you tell me he lies though

confused all day then all through the night
sleep and wake and shake with doubt
want to live free and live to see it all
patience drunk sways but i can’t see her
she’s about to fall and i can’t know
she can’t go oh no

life’s sweet candy coated in the bitter
frustration at not knowing His thoughts
trying anyway and failing forever
for eternity, feel your way around
blind as a man with no eyes
blind in faith and love and life

put fuel only on His fire
save none for your own desire
his fire will quell your desire
if you listen if you listen
his fire can quell desire
i’m full of desire

hours and crying and wiping the mind
surrender sweet in the early morn
taking everything in, spitting it out
fragmented vomited words stolen
stolen from everyone but me
from whom there’s nothing to steal

amalgamated love and thoughts and fears
living inside everyone else for 23 years
empty so empty except for this love
selfless love comes easy but shows hard
showings hard, it’s not who i was
i must fight who i was every minute
of every hour

for you
and for Him



  1. modane said,

    November 7, 2008 at 4:39 pm

    hey do i know you? and thanks for the comment, i think its good too, but then, i wrote it.

  2. modane said,

    November 7, 2008 at 7:44 pm

    that is pretty awesome. too bad it probably made me look like a cokewhore, it’s all fiction, i swear.

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